Hopelessly in Lust

In two weeks I will be “celebrating” my one year anniversary with the guy I might probably be in love lust with, but he will not be celebrating it in return.  Let me explain…

A year ago I met Mr. Unattainable in a bar.  He was super polite and kind of cute (meeting my requirements of tall, dark and athletic) but I still totally tried to get away without his number.  Fortunately, he caught me and forced it into my contact list.  The reason I didn’t care for his number is that I was visiting a friend, 4 hours away – so what do I care about some guy I will never hear from in a City Far Away? 

About a week later, I was moving along my daily life without a care in the world, when Mr. Unattainable texted me.  We chatted for a while, and turns out he’s funny and smooth too – uh oh!  Next time I went to visit my girl in City Far Away I let him know and we grabbed lunch before I caught my bus home.  It was fun and we continued to talk after that point.  Since then, when I visit my girl in City Far Away I make sure to hang out with him, and he has come to visit a bunch of times over the past year.

Since about August I have been comparing every guy I meet to Mr. Unattainable.  This is a problem because it seems that no one compares!  So now I am thinking that maybe I want to try and be together and make this work.  I know we live 4 hours away from each other, but whatever, it totally works for some people.  However, Mr. Unattainable has some quirks that frustrate the hell out of me.  Number one being that he NEVER talks about what he sees us as.  I have tried (sort of) to mention that I wish we were more serious, and I never realize he is dodging the conversation until it is over.  When I mention that I am just a booty call, he does get upset and try to convince me it is so much more than that…but what is it then? Friends with benefits? YUCK 

Another quirk is that Mr. Unattainable refuses to meet my family.  Normally I would be okay with this, but I have met his ENTIRE family (without warning).  On one of his visits to Suburbia we were out shopping, getting dinner when randomly he mentions his nieces live nearby and we MUST visit.  So we brought them to dinner with us, which reminded him that his brother worked nearby so we HAD to visit.    Then, during one of my visits to him in City Far Away (where he lives with his family) I was woken by him saying “come out and say hi to everyone” (everyone being his sister, mother, and brother-in-law).  Trying to smooth out my nasty-sex-hair, fix my makeup, and make his boxers and t-shirt from the night before look appropriate for the Sunday morning church crowd, I made lady-like introductions with his family.  Every time he visits, my parents (remember the single suburbanite lives with family) are out of town.  Mr. Unattainable swears he is “scared” that they won’t approve of him being a different race, and I am so tired of trying to convince him they don’t care!

I really do look so forward to hearing from and seeing Mr. Unattainable, but at the same time this all causes me much stress.  I really am want to be a drama free girl.  So now I am at the point where I want to give him the “we are together, or we are nothing” talk…or just try to wean myself off of him and move on.  So that is where I am this week.  I will try to keep updating on what happens with Mr. Unattainable, and I am sure I will write about him in the What Was He Thinking portion of my blog at some point!

Until Next Time,

Kiki